Emotions

There are so many emotions that I have gone through the past two years it's overwhelming. Obviously J and I have experienced a great deal of sadness, excitement, dissapointment, anger and discouragement. It is quite the rollar coaster ride I am sure any woman TTC can relate to that. Any emotion in the book, I am sure that I have experienced it at some point in time, the good, the bad and the ugly.

Sometimes I wonder if our struggles to get pregnant are a punishment for something in my past. Is God trying to teach me a lesson? He is constantly teaching me patience and this I am always well aware of! Am I not equipped to be a mother? Does God have something else in mind for my life, separate from what I envision? Do we struggle so that some day we can share our testimony and encourage other couples who are struggling? I am always full of questions, most of the time the main question is just why me? The bible says "Go forth and multiply" so why is that so hard for some people to accomplish?

This blog will allow me an outlet to express all of the emotion that I deal with on a daily basis. I hope to help others in knowing what they are feeling is normal and rational. To anyone who reads this who is going through the same things as J and I are, please seek comfort in the fact that so many women, including myself can relate. I hope in sharing my emotional journey on this blog it will be a blessing to any strangers who come across it.