Michelle Duggar lost her baby today. She was in her second trimester and found out at a routine check up. As most of you know I am an AVID Duggar fan, and my heart is saddened tonight to hear of this news. It stirs up so many past emotions for me.
Both of my miscarriages were very different but tonight I am sending many happy thoughts up to my beautiful angel babies. Man, I can't wait to meet them. My first miscarriage was completely unexpected, I had no idea until I started cramping and eventually contracting, and lost that baby naturally, which I will be honest was awful.
My second miscarriage we knew things did not look good from the beginning based on my "numbers." That situation was also awful as I endured two weeks of not knowing whether my baby was going to make it or not. Unfortunately there had been no growth for those two weeks, and no heartbeat at my 8 week ultrasound. That time around I elected to have a d&c as I could not endure another natural "passing." For those that have experienced this, you know what I mean. That day at the hospital ranks up there with the second worst day of my life, and thinking back, it wasn't any easier than going the natural route. I am so blessed with our first born, and thank God for him every day. I am now expecting our 2nd and things are going very well.
I am so thankful tonight, for all four of my babies. Two of which I am blessed with the great anticipation of meeting some day, and two of which God has entrusted me to raise. Feeling many emotions tonight, blessed, saddened, angry, mournful, eager, blessed. Incredibly blessed.
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